Best Big Sisters

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I'm sure I'm biased, but these girls are the most precious big sisters on the planet :)
They are such a huge help to me. I've so enjoyed every minute with them lately. Both girls' personalities are really shining through and it still amazes me everyday how different they are. Its so cool to watch them play together and love on each other, yet still have their own unique likes and interests.
I feel like I'm finally coming into my own as a mom of three girls. I used to struggle with finding the balance between CDC AND CRC. Everyone told me I favored CRC. which I may have because of her Albinism, but I never did it intentionally. Now though, with 3, I've learned its ok to love each of them uniquely. I love them all the same, but I've encouraged them to explore their differences and with that I've embraced each of them in their own.
They are my everything and I'm shown everyday just how blessed I am.
Kayce

Happy 4mos JClaire

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My sweet baby girl is 4 months old now, as of the 23rd!! I can't believe how fast the time is flying by! I love this little girl so stinkin' much. She's still the best baby ever! I'm so blessed. All she ever does is smile ear to ear, sleep, eat, and play. :)
She started rolling over both front to back and back to front. She's almost sitting up with no support. And just this week I gave her her very first bite of solids. It was Oatmeal and she loved it. I thought she was going to attack the spoon! We're working on keeping it in her mouth. *wink* So cute! She is still tiny, weighing a mere 11.2lbs Aw..my peanut.
I love my JClaire She is such a joy to our life!
(Btw, I know these sideways pics are terribly annoying!!)
Kaycee

The Parade and Fair Came to Town!

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With all of my anxiety and emotions swirling around with these test results, I've lacked on blogging about the girls and fun stuff!

So much has happened in the passed two weeks! The first Razorbacks game and tailgate party, my birthday(post n pics to come), and the fair and parade came to town! We had so much fun!!

We made it to both in one night! The parade was kind of blah..just a small town parade with tons of beauty queens marching bands and firetrucks :) Then we went to the fair. My dad had a booth in the fair so he got FREE wristbands for the girls to ride all of the rides. They rode every single kiddie ride and had a blast! We stayed out until 10pm. Oops! :) Oh! And both girls and myself were caught on camera by the local news. So cool!!

I always love when the fair comes to town! Corndogs, caramel apples and lemonade are a must! I'm so happy the girls can join in on the tradition! Now to wait for the state fair!

Biopsy Results

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I had my biopsy done last Thursday and the results came back today.
It was a low grade lesion like the pap showed so they are going to wait 3months and do a repeat Pap to just keep an eye on it. Praise God it wasn't more serious as of now!!! Thank you for all of your prayers and I hope you'll continue to keep me in them.
Kaycee

More Abnormal than Before

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I'm not going to be very eloquent in this post because my emotions are all over the place. I can't speak with poise or big words because all I feel is fear and shock!

I had posted months ago about an abnormal pap. They wanted to wait until after I had the baby to get a repeat. Well, I did last week and it came back worse..

I actually have a lesion now and have to go in for a biopsy on Thursday.

I can't even begin to put into words how scared I am. Of course, my mind races to the worst of the worst scenario. I'm terrified for the procedure and most of all the results. I have no insurance so its even more complicated.

So many questions run through my mind like "why me?" Am I so bad a person to deserve all of this turmoil I've gone through in the last year? Am I being punished for getting divorced? I just don't understand so many things. I know God is in control and there must be a reason for this to be happening to me. I'm trying to put the fear and worry behind me because it is a sin after all. I'm pushing myself to stay focused on the girls and what I know is great in my life at the moment rather than what could be bad.

Prayers would be greatly appreciated.
Kaycee