The Parade and Fair Came to Town!

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With all of my anxiety and emotions swirling around with these test results, I've lacked on blogging about the girls and fun stuff!

So much has happened in the passed two weeks! The first Razorbacks game and tailgate party, my birthday(post n pics to come), and the fair and parade came to town! We had so much fun!!

We made it to both in one night! The parade was kind of blah..just a small town parade with tons of beauty queens marching bands and firetrucks :) Then we went to the fair. My dad had a booth in the fair so he got FREE wristbands for the girls to ride all of the rides. They rode every single kiddie ride and had a blast! We stayed out until 10pm. Oops! :) Oh! And both girls and myself were caught on camera by the local news. So cool!!

I always love when the fair comes to town! Corndogs, caramel apples and lemonade are a must! I'm so happy the girls can join in on the tradition! Now to wait for the state fair!

Biopsy Results

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I had my biopsy done last Thursday and the results came back today.
It was a low grade lesion like the pap showed so they are going to wait 3months and do a repeat Pap to just keep an eye on it. Praise God it wasn't more serious as of now!!! Thank you for all of your prayers and I hope you'll continue to keep me in them.
Kaycee

More Abnormal than Before

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I'm not going to be very eloquent in this post because my emotions are all over the place. I can't speak with poise or big words because all I feel is fear and shock!

I had posted months ago about an abnormal pap. They wanted to wait until after I had the baby to get a repeat. Well, I did last week and it came back worse..

I actually have a lesion now and have to go in for a biopsy on Thursday.

I can't even begin to put into words how scared I am. Of course, my mind races to the worst of the worst scenario. I'm terrified for the procedure and most of all the results. I have no insurance so its even more complicated.

So many questions run through my mind like "why me?" Am I so bad a person to deserve all of this turmoil I've gone through in the last year? Am I being punished for getting divorced? I just don't understand so many things. I know God is in control and there must be a reason for this to be happening to me. I'm trying to put the fear and worry behind me because it is a sin after all. I'm pushing myself to stay focused on the girls and what I know is great in my life at the moment rather than what could be bad.

Prayers would be greatly appreciated.
Kaycee

JClaire - 3mos old

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I can't believe its already been 3 whole months since I first laid eyes on my sweet JClaire. She has blessed my life beyind words. I couldn't ask for a more perfect child.

She loves her Fisher Price Rainforest Swing! She snoozes in it and it allows me to get thing accomplished! Naptime is every few hours for her..in the swing. On the opposite side of the spectrum, JClaire hates her car seat while riding in the car! Oh my goodness, she used to love it and fall sound asleep, but now as soon as she is buckled in, the cries ensue. Grr! I am almost ready to be house bound, just to avoid the car stress! I hope that phase passes quickly.

She only weighs about 10lbs now. She's definitely my little peanut. Most of her Newborn clothes still fit! But I have been able to get her into a few of the 0-3mo outfits.

I'm loving the baby smiles!!! She gets tickled all the time. Such a happy baby girl. The fan is by far her favorite thing to smile at. But I'm pretty popular in her eyes as well :)CDC and CRC can always make her grin too. That is until they start yanking on her legs. Yeesh! Well, that's mostly CRC when she is very tired. I think she's still getting used to having a "baby" sister because she thinks she is still the baby!

Overall, its been wonderful. I can't imagine not having JClaire in our lives! Everyone falls in love with her as soon as they meet her.

CDC's First Day of Kindergarten

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My big 5 year old started Kindergarten on August 15 2011. She was so stinkin' excited!! Normally, she is not a morning person and its like peeling her out from under the covers. But on that first day of school, she bounced out of bed and was just as chipper as a little lark.
I had asked her what she wanted to wear on her first day and she said "a dress! A purple one." So I went to Old Navy and found this cute dress and little ballet flats to match. She loved it, thank goodness. Wouldn't want to disappoint her on day 1 of Kinder! I still remember my outfit on that day. Its such a special memory! I hope she will always remember it too :)